I think you'are my first and last love but you aren't

For a loong time I always thinking you are my first and last love but you are'nt. You just a monster for me now, I hate you now. But I can say anithing again I still love you until now half of my heart was hatting you but the half I love you. I can't let you go I having jeolusing tooking you with that bitch!!!. I love you but I hate you......